
Two things hit home when I met Taapsee Pannu. Unlike the strong characters she plays on screen, she has a charming disposition (making it pretty obvious she is a solid actor). However, the other more intriguing quality that stands out is her earnestness. Even in our conversation, she doesnât steer away from dishing it out as she sees fit, keeping it very real, very honest, very Taapsee. For someone whose growing up years were âby the bookâ template of being studious and rarely going out for fantastical cinematic escapades, Taapsee clearly revels in her journey of making it on her own. In an industry where fame and fortune often favours the âwell connectedâ, she has a body of work that is rich with powerful stories, often opposite legendary actors. Inspiring, fascinating, fearless, and quite fabulous, Taapsee is truly living in her âGirl, youâve got thisâ era.Â
Pratishtha Dobhal (PD): It is evident with all of the years, which youâve had in the industry and the kind of method you bring to your acting that you love a good challenge. What is a recent opportunity youâve seen as a challenge youâve wanted to win over?
Taapsee Pannu (TP): The one challenge that I felt was, or rather, has consistently been something that I succeed in or sometimes fail at is making sure I am not letting one part of my life overshadow the other. Sometimes (you know) your personal life demands more attention and your professional life takes a back seat; and at times it is the other way around. So the challenge has always been to make sure that I donât give any one side of my life so much importance over the other that I do injustice to the other side...because I have a limited span of years to live. I donât want to regret tomorrow that I didnât give this [either professional or personal life] enough time and attention because then you start to overcompensate...and I donât want to reach that stage.
PD: Did you have such clarity of thought right from the get-go or has it come over the past couple of years?
TP: Itâs been 10 to 11 years now in the Hindi film industry for me, and 14 when I take into account my starting point, which was in the South. It is only in the last six or seven years that I started to feel I should concentrate on getting this balance right. I didnât come from a mindset and a background of always wanting to be an actor, so my professional life was taking more of me because I was starting from scratch. I reached a point where I realisedâafter my fair share of failures and successesâthat nothing is permanent, either the success or the failure.
But if I have to keep hustling constantly, I cannot just make that my lifeâs motto and forget the other aspects of my life thatare never coming back. I will never be able to fill the gap in my personal relationships, unlike my professional life. I didnât want that kind of void in my personal life, which is something I realised in the last seven to eight years. You know, this is a never-ending hustle...no matter what stage you reach in your career, youâll always have people whoâll be better than you and those whoâll not be where you are. This profession doesnât give you the liberty to take it easy, so I kind of made peace with the fact that everybody is replaceable...everybody is going to come and go. I need to make sure that every 24-hours is worth living. That should be my goal rather than winning other endless accolades.
PD: Were you ever influenced by mentors or others you saw around who had the kind of work-life balance you wanted to emulate?
TP: I wonât say loneliness, but the fact that I was alone in this battle throughout, standing on my own, has been my mentor. I was alone in my journey and didnât have a support system of any sorts in my work life. It taught me that you have to fend for yourself and stand up for yourself.Â
PD: You started off so young also...you were an engineer by profession...Â
TP: When I look at whatâs happening right now, I feel like I started too old. Sometimes I feel why did I even bother to complete four years of engineering and then start?â Look at the girls who are coming in today. They are teenagers...they start working on brands or films and prepping quite young. When I was their age, I was just trying to figure out which direction to walk in and I was pretty clueless. Weâre only going by the book and leading monotonous lives by studying, passing exams, etc. In my early 20s, IÂ
quickly realised Iâve made a lot of mistakes. Learning how to fix it on my own made me grow up pretty fast that I never ended up playing the college girl or those [similar] characters never came to me because I never had the liberty to choose or ask for those kinds of roles or scripts. When I look back and think why didnât I do a rom-com, I realise that at that age and time, I was just trying to understand what amounts to good make-up, great hair, and styling. You know, these are the basics you learn in your early 20s when you start the job. I feel like Iâve been late at a lot of milestones in that sense.
PD: I feel differently...I feel that todayâs generation, for instance, they grow up with the world capsule in a mobile in their hands. You can become content creators and, in turn, actors of sorts early on, so you have to give more credit to yourself for figuring this out all on your own as well.
TP: Yes, that is true. I acknowledge that I started late but there is not an ounce of regret because I am extremely happy with the fact that I completed my credible graduation degree with distinction. I did it happily and didnât drag myself through it.Â
PD: Working in a South filmâalso a Telugu filmâand learning a new language...did you feel out of depth?
TP: Totally! I felt like a fish out of water. I still remember that feeling in front of the camera when I had to overcome this sheep-in-a-big-city feeling. I remember the first shot I ever gave was in Tamil. I was given this one line, which was half in English, half in Tamil. I had never spoken Tamil in my life nor had heard it. I jumped in at the deep end and I remember, I said it [the dialogue] in such a stoic way that I was really taken aback by what was happening...but it was okayed in the first take. Thatâs because my director was so smart; he was like âI know where youâre coming from and what your frame of mind is, which is why I started off with this scene where I needed you to look like thatâ.
PD: Did you have any insecurities while growing up and were you the entertainer in your family? What was it like for a 15-year-old you?
TP: I actually donât know if I knew what insecurities were at that point...I had a very normal childhood. I was neither the over-pampered one nor the neglected one. I was this typical elder sibling in the house and I had to fight through a lot of rules. I had the maximum responsibility to score and outscore my cousins and others because, you know, youâre always compared to everyone around you. I donât know if that helped me push myself academically or I probably found my love for studying that I ended up scoring really well. So, it was never like I got a lot of stress from my parents about not doing well. As long as I scored well, my parents let me do whatever I wanted to do beyond studies.
PD: Like?
TP: Be it sports, public-speaking activities, dance, even street sportsâthese street games that we played as kidsâI was allowed to do that. For instance, after the ninth standard, I probably was the only girl who continued playing Pithoo (the traditional Indian game of seven stones) in the society ground. After the ninth standard, all the girls were more keen on books or just meeting up with other girls, whereas I wanted to go out and burn all my energy. So, I ended up being the only girl among boys who would play and run around till the sun set.Â
PD: And did you have posters in your home of maybe, you know, girl bands, boy bands, or perhaps an iconic movie you were very affected by?
TP: My family has never been a âmovie-lovingâ one. Theyâve never been the kinds who loved watching movies or taking us out to watch movies. Whatever movies I saw were during my lunch or dinner hours or whatever was playing on TV. While I used to watch satellite premieres of movies, it was only in my college days when I started going to theatres. My familiarity with the film industry didnât really happen in those 15-16 years of age. But whatever I saw on TV caught my attention, and I would go back to it. I enjoyed watching Karisma Kapoor on screen. I remember, there used to be a time when I kept so many pictures of her with me.
PD: And now, looking back, if you could pack up your life in chapters in the decades youâve lived so far, what name would you give to each decade, or how would you describe it and why?
TP: Hmm...the first decade will be the most hyperactive one. Being hyperactive has nothing to do with any syndrome; it is just that Iâve always been the overenergetic kinds who loved doing everything. I was neverÂ
shy of talking to strangers. It was a problem for my family...theyâd think that, one day, I would go away with one of these strangers, which made me a very âhyper-socialâ kid (laughs). The second decade was a confusing one because I was happy being a girl but I was not doing what a lot of girls around me did. It was like âwhy donât I like sitting, chatting, and not playing?â or âwhy am I not doing the conventional things that the girls of my age are doing?â.Â
That was followed by college, where there were mostly boys. I didnât even care about what was stylish and what wasnât. I used to be horribly dressed in baggy pants and loose shirts. For me, it was just like âthis look is coolâ. So my idea of cool did not resonate with the other girls of my age.Then came the 20-30 decade where you barely have figured out who you are, what you like, what you donât like, and youâve jumped from school to college. Youâve neither seen enough of life nor travelled enough to make a decision about what you want to do but you still have to choose your path. I feel that is a problem in our system.
PD: That is true...
TP: I was making these big life decisions when I really didnât know muchâneither about myself, nor about what life was in general at the time. Thatâs a decade where I was trying to find direction, plus, everybody scares you so much at that time that if it doesnât go right, youâre going to lose out on a lot of years and time. I was working in the South in my 20s, when things were not really going in my favour and I was thinking âshould I pick up the call and speak to my family that this is not really working out? Iâm not enjoying a lot of these things that Iâm doing here because my heart and mind are not able to...theyâre not in syncâ. But I was so scared because I was like I took the decision of choosing this profession and now, if I go back, will I be made to feel embarrassed in society? Itâs in my 30s when I feel I have really come into my elementâI feel like âokay, now Iâve kind of understood my life and myself well...Now I can make clear decisions and not be influenced by other people or what they tell me to doâ. All this self-realisation started coming to me in my 30s.Â
PD: Fair to say you found ease in being yourself in your 30s? Which also leads me to your Insta bio that says: âIâm an acquired taste, not everyoneâs cup of teaâ...If you were to compare yourself to a cuisine or a dish, what is that acquired taste that âTaapseeâ is?
TP: Itâs Sushi! While it might look bland and raw for your palette initially, thereâs a process to get it to what it looks and tastes like...itâs just that it is not obviously visible to your eyes. And the method that has gone into making it.Â
PD: Speaking of chapters and self-evolution, congratulations are in order for your wedding this year to Mathias [badminton player, Mathias Boe]. Youâve spoken of how you met. But tell me, whatâs that one thing, which really appealed to you about him as you got to know him better over the years?Â
TP: I think the fact that he is an athlete and someone who had won at the Olympics for a start...half the job was done there (laughs). I have always been very impressed and in awe of athletes who play for their country and play under extreme pressure without getting affected. I have loads and loads of respect and admiration for them. There was a lot of testing and a lot of me being sure. It was not like a love-at-first-sight situation, for me at leastâI took time to test if itâs really practical...the feasibility of the relationship was important for me. I was obviously fond of him and respected him, and we kept meeting and I grew to love him. So falling in love didnât happen in a month or instantly. It is a fact though, which I keep repeating in most interviews about himâwhen I met him I felt like I met a man. I had dated so many boys before him, and suddenly, I met a guy who didnât feel like anyone Iâd been with before. So thereâs this sudden sense of security and maturity, which was so evident that I felt like âokay, youâve finally found the manâ.Â
PD: Culturally speaking, you also come from two different backgrounds. What are the similarities and differences youâve discovered over this period of being together?Â
TP: How close-knit youâre as a family is something thatâs similar between Scandinavians and us, I feel. And what is different culturally is how amazingly independent kids are over there. I have so many nieces and nephews and I see how wholesome and complete their personalities are. I can see them being confident at such a young age. They become independent early on and in life that sense of responsibility is so nicely transferred without feeling the pressure to perform, which is very different.
PD: Tell me...what sets you free in an action-oriented, wilful way
TP: I think that happens when I travel because thatâs genuinely when I donât have to bother about whoâs looking, whoâs filming, whoâs watching, what is this going to be interpreted as. It is quite freeing when I take the trams, buses, tubes, trains in different countries, and travel locally without bothering about how this is going to be interpreted or whoâs going to see and say what. So that kind of control over my being is what makes me feel free.
PD: And whatâs the wildest spontaneous trip youâve taken yet?
TP: (laughs) A lot of them have been spontaneous, but courtesy our visa department, not everything can be that spontaneous. But I think the recent oneâwhen I went to Amsterdamâwas pretty last minute. My sister and her friends were going, and I just jumped in and put myself in her group just because I had the visa.
PD: In love, life, family, career...what fills you with pride?
TP: It is easy for me to feel happy or proud. When I say yes to a movie that nobody wants me to do and I end up doing it, and it works...that makes me proud. Or even when thereâs a film I am cast in which nobody thought I could pull off, it fills me with pride.
PD: For instance?
TP: I think for a lot of films, I have not really been the first choice. For example, when Haseen Dillruba (2021) happened, I think people didnât really expect to see me in that avatar. When I was cast in Dunki (2023), I donât think anybody really expected me to be in that kind of film because I really donât have access to or had been a part of that circle. So, these are the kind of things that make me feel proud that âokay youâve probably done something right to reach here where you haveâ.
PD: You wear so many hats now...as an engineer, actor, producer, entrepreneur. What is next for you?
TP: Life is what happens when youâre busy making plans...I read that somewhere (laughs). And none of this was planned, not even my entrepreneurship, acting, or anything. Especially after COVID, I realised thereâs no point making big plans because it will happen if it is meant to happen at the right time. So, I donât really make big future plans. I just want to make sure I donât have any regrets in life when I turn back and say I should have done that. I do things instinctively with some practical research. For now, I donât have a big 10-year plan for my life. Â
Shoot talent:Â
Editor: Pratishtha Dobhal (@pratishtha_dobhal)Â
Digital Editor: Sonal Ved (@sonalved)Â
Photographer: Manasi Sawant (@manasisawant)Â
Stylist: Nishtha Parwani (@nishthaparwani)Â
Editorial Coordinator: Shalini Kanojia (@shalinikanojia)Â
Hair: Amit Thakur (@amitthakur_hair)
Make-up: Evania Pannu (@evaniapannu)
Style Assistants: Stuti Patade (@stuti.patade), Anushka Sharma (@_anouchka_0)
Production Assistant: Riya Kala (@riya_kala)
Artist Reputation Management: Spice PR (@spicesocial)
Location: IFBE, designed by Malik Architecture (@ifbe.space)
On Tapsee:Â
Cover Look: âMadridâ big buckle sandals, Birkenstock (@birkenstockin); swimsuit, Verandah (@studioverandah); scramble knit trousers, Shivan & Narresh (@shivanandnarresh); earrings, Arvino (@arvino_co); on wrist (top to bottom): bangle, I Blame Beads (@iblamebeads); stone bangle, Tribe Amrapali (@tribebyamrapali); molten bangle cuff, Arvino (@arvino_co)
Look 1: Satin blouse, Malie; cotton trousers, SAND by Shirin; textured earrings, slender bangle, textured cuff, celestial ring, all Tribe by Amrapali.Â
Look 2: Vest, Massimo Dutti; embroidered shorts, Sonam Khetan; heart studs, Radhika Agrawal; enamel ring, Arvino; slender ring (part of a set), Love Letter; Uji Nubuck Leather (green/surf green), Birkenstock.
Look 3: Arizona Big Buckle Natural Leather Oiled (in green/biscay bay), Birkenstock; embroidered jacket, knitted shorts, both Lovebirds; hoop earrings, Love Letter; on wrist (from top to bottom) stone cuff, Tribe Amrapali; molten cuff, Arvino; textured ring (part of a set), Misho.Â
Look 4: Theda Natural Leather (in black), Birkenstock; lace bra, Hunkemoller; knit wrap dress, Shivan &Â
Narresh; pearl hoops, Tribe Amrapali; pendant necklace, Radhika Agrawal; pearl ring, ripple ring, both Misho.Â